Photos from ActNow! Rescue's post Through tragedy, despair, heart crushing grief and tears that still sting horribly just about daily over losing my beautiful sweet boy Cooper on March 6th after a dizzying and abrupt 3 weeks watching my boy go from vibrant, playful and so full of life to crying from such horrible pain and cross to Rainbow bridge in my arms I felt was the kindest most humane act of pure true love I could have ever given Cooper as much as it truly fucking sucked and left such a void in my heart....Cancer doesn’t judge nor discriminate!! It is never fair nor easy....At 7yrs old Cooper had so much more life to live so much so I wanted to bring home another sweet pup for Cooper to grow old with...Knowing exactly where and with whom I wanted to go to find another little for our home.... Tammy R Urke-Murdock with Act Now Rescue was Cooper’s Foster Mom and over the 7yrs we had loved and provided Cooper with the BEST HOME EVER I happily would share pictures and updates with Tammy of Cooper’s life with us!! It is with Tammy I knew I wanted to give the same opportunity to another pup that we had offered and were giving to Cooper!! Convincing Richard Lemon that we needed to have another pup in our home was my only obstacle....it was challenging to say the least!! Valentine’s Day began the first indication my sweet beautiful boy was “injured”...he began a subtle limp and the first of several visits to Dr. Allen at Westover Animal Clinic....we didn’t talk much now about brining home another pup....we needed to get our goofy gentle giant back to his regular self again...his friends at Camp K-9 were missing his weekly play and sleep over visits as well!! We tried some medication cocktails along with lots of rest it seemed to ease some of his pain and limp and then it didn’t and his limp progressed to barely weight bearing on his paw to him crying with such horrible pain...initial xrays and tests were negative which progressed to full sedation and multiple imaging to tragically confirm the worst diagnosis possible....There was no way to sugar coat this conversation....Dr. Allen was as shocked to say the words to me as I was to hear her say them...”Cooper has cancer”.....I just needed to take my boy home....I needed to process this nightmare and allow my family to be all together with Cooper....it was far from a traditional night as we stayed with Cooper in the living room trying everything to comfort him and ease his cry’s of pain....knowing by morning the only hope I could offer to ease my sweet beautiful boy’s pain was the hardest decision I had to make....My mom came to be with me...to be with Cooper...to be with us!!! Her support is tremendous...SHE IS TREMENDOUS!!! We made the call to Dr. Allen....She set aside an afternoon time for us....As awful an appointment it was to make I can’t thank the staff enough at Westover Animal Clinic for the outstanding treatment, compassion and love for all they did for my sweet beautiful Cooper, myself and my mom!!! It was so dam hard....as hard as it was to make that choice I am so comforted because it was so peaceful and truly humane....I believe Cooper is in a much happier place now without that horrible pain he had.....I believe I will see him and my sweet Jakey again!!!
Our home was now quiet...Echoing with an emptiness....
The weekend had come and being home was hard....Richard knew....WE KNEW.....He told me to talk to Tammy to see what she may have for pups waiting for adoption.....A little spark of warmth filled my heart with our conversation!!! Tammy was fostering the “Toast pups”!!!! Peanut butter, Butter, Cream cheese, Jam and Jelly!!! They are Boxer/Shepherd mix...mom was so thin and wasn’t able to provide much for all her pups...The pups were born on Jan 8th as best they could decide and would be ready to go to their furever home April 8th!!!! This was all feeling to fall into place and just felt like it was so meant to be!!!! My heart needs time to time to understand my loss and grief while our home needed the company of a new furbaby...we were excited knowing in just over a month we’d be welcoming home a new little!!! We decided to bring “Jam” into our home!!!
Spending the next few days finalizing the formalities of the adoption and transport of our little pup home and seeing pics and videos of our sweet pup I was told his brothers had all been adopted out and because they were local adoptions they were able to go sooner than ours...left from the original liter mates were now just “Jam” and his only sister “Jelly”....she was much smaller than her brother and “Jam” being the largest of all the pups!!! Learning next that “Jelly” is the only “Toast pup” never having gotten any inquiries for adoption, I mentioned this to Richard, and adding that wouldn’t it nice to keep “Jam” and “Jelly” together and not separate them and they could grow up with each other....to my surprise he agreed!!!!! And was sincere!!!! I couldn’t wait to send Tammy a message...That not only were we so excited to bring “Jam” home but that we also want his sister “Jelly”!!!!!
This inquiry began about 3 months ago to provide my sweet beautiful boy Cooper with the love and companionship of a lil’pup to grow old with....Sadly my sweet boy will never have that chance....Cooper will forever be in my heart along with my sweet Jakey!! Neither could EVER be replaced!! I am overjoyed that I am able to continue to offer and provide a very loving home to not one but to two sweet pups!!!! Spring is the season of growth and rebuilding and THAT is just what we need to help us heal from such a tragic loss....
“Jam” and “Jelly” (Oliver and Violet) will come furever home on April 11th!!!! 🐶💛🐶 ... See more
